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Miz_Jess

hi hi, yes, school has started, and i am a S . E . N . i . O . R !!!!!!!! hehe...it's been great, first week is over, and i'm doin pretty good.  enough earrings to last the whole year, man.  but, haha..yea..that's my highlight of it, anyways.  school's good, friends are good, transportation not good, family good, future, blurry.  well..yea...no one has seen much of me lately, but i still love them, my filipiniana girls. 

summer was great, won Miss Fil.Am, got in trouble with the law, tried some modeling, got new clothes, and last, but not least, spent the whole summer with my boyfriend.  gotta love  him.  just to end it, i need a car.  haha.  but..i think i'm getting one very soon.  hhhmmm...yes...18 this year.  nothing big..but..wait..yea..big for me cause..well..cause i've never been 18.  haha. 

school...uhhh..comin up...

| aug.13 | stop the violence rally with Jermaine Dupri, Ludacris, Outkast, TLC, 112, Jagged Edge, and Michael Vick 'supposedly' haha...

| aug.26 | court

| sept.7 | my baby's birthday, turnin the one9

that's it...ight..deuces jessa

yea, almost 2 weeks ago, my mom's good friend's son past away, adrian.  it was very sad to hear.  i didn't really hear of it til a day later cause that whole week i was at andy's, and turned my phone off cause no battery, and stayed at kemps house for a bit.  it was really sad to hear, cause, even though i wasn't close to him, he was the closet person that i've known that has past away.  yea, one of my grandmothers and one of my grandfathers has gone, but it's different cause they lived in the philippines and everything.  so..it's different.

yea, after you hear someone has died, it makes you think about things.  about how you live your life, or how you act and react to things, how you think, talk, and feel.  alot of things went through my mind.  like, of course, why him?  everyone has their time to go, and their faults and mishaps, and  yes, it is God's mind to determine everything that happens.  he knows what's gonna happen next, and when you're gonna leave.  but, you gotta keep in mind that you do gotta live life to it's fullest.  you do gotta think twice, but yet, take risks.  there's so much people tell you to do.  and so much people tell you not to.  but it's up to your mind and heart, whether to take that risk, little or big.  you can care about your consequences, but then again, you won't really live your experiences the best way you could of.  adrian was a guy who took alot of risks, who just wanted to have fun.  that saturday night, he just wanted to take a joy ride on a motorcycle.  have fun, ride, it wasn't an everyday thing to just ride a harley-davidson.  he took that risk.  wasn't really thinking of the consequence.  but, God took his life that night.  no one knows why.  it was just God's plan.  but, i heard his mom say, "adrian was never afraid to die."  he was in the marines, and wanted to go back.  but, his mom didn't want him to.  it's good to hear that someone wasn't afraid to die.  if you live your life the right way, through God, you shouldn't be afraid to die.   life is short, don't take advantage of the time you have here.  live it, and love it.  i just hope you all don't keep yourselves from living. 

R. I. P

Adrian Dye

1982-2oo5

"A good friend, a great son, and an American hero..."

deuce jessa